Ronald T.
Well-Known Member
First off – none of what you read hear is based on any actual feedback. It’s entirely due to the subtle fears caused by an ever uncertain mind. So please, let me explain how my often demented yet always busy mind works. If nothing else, by the time I’ve finished this post, it’s likely you’ll have concluded one of two things: either I’m telling the truth, or I truly am a pathological liar. In the end, that conclusion is up to you.
After reading the generous compliments about my determination to read all the threads on this particular forum, it occurred to me last night as I lie awake prior to falling asleep, that it’s very possible for people to think me a liar. The thought kept me awake far longer than I would’ve liked.
It was still with me when I awoke, and I’m having a bit of trouble shaking it off. At first, I was going to ignore it. But I don’t think that would be beneficial to anyone.
If I’m thought of as a liar, how can any of you as readers of this forum wish to read anything else I post from here on? And how does it serve me to ignore such a misconception? I don’t think my ego is completely out of control, but I’ll openly admit to having one that can be bruised at times. The sad part is, that bruising is often self-inflicted, just as it might be in this instance.
Now, I’m going to compound the danger that I might be considered a liar by stating another simple fact: I not only read the entire SFF CRONICLES “General Writing Discussion” forum, I did the same thing at a different site, one created by someone similar to our own inspired leader, Brian Turner. I researched both of these sites at the same time. And I will admit, I was a lot of work.
But as you get to know me, you’ll find I have no fear of taking on a difficult or long-term challenge if what I want to know or achieve is backed by my strong desire to learn or complete something. I spent more than four years building our dream home, taking no more than three or four days off each year. I did at least 90% of the work myself. So I suppose I should change the term “strong desire” to the more accurate term “fanatical desire”. If you doubt my terminology, you have only to query Jane, my beloved wife of 46 years. I feel quite certain she’ll set your mind at ease.
I’m sure this is merely a self-serving exercise, and I’ll admit that. I only posted this as a way to sooth my own unmanaged insecurities. But I’ve never believed that turning a blind eye to a real or imagined problem is the best way to deal with it. I’d rather face it straight on – face to face. After that, I can feel secure that I’ve done all I could do, personally.
I hope I haven’t bored you. If so, I apologize. But, at least now I can move on without my uncertainty festering into something unhealthier than an uncertain mind. And I thank you all for listening.
As always, my best to you all,
-- The Hermit in the Woods --
After reading the generous compliments about my determination to read all the threads on this particular forum, it occurred to me last night as I lie awake prior to falling asleep, that it’s very possible for people to think me a liar. The thought kept me awake far longer than I would’ve liked.
It was still with me when I awoke, and I’m having a bit of trouble shaking it off. At first, I was going to ignore it. But I don’t think that would be beneficial to anyone.
If I’m thought of as a liar, how can any of you as readers of this forum wish to read anything else I post from here on? And how does it serve me to ignore such a misconception? I don’t think my ego is completely out of control, but I’ll openly admit to having one that can be bruised at times. The sad part is, that bruising is often self-inflicted, just as it might be in this instance.
Now, I’m going to compound the danger that I might be considered a liar by stating another simple fact: I not only read the entire SFF CRONICLES “General Writing Discussion” forum, I did the same thing at a different site, one created by someone similar to our own inspired leader, Brian Turner. I researched both of these sites at the same time. And I will admit, I was a lot of work.
But as you get to know me, you’ll find I have no fear of taking on a difficult or long-term challenge if what I want to know or achieve is backed by my strong desire to learn or complete something. I spent more than four years building our dream home, taking no more than three or four days off each year. I did at least 90% of the work myself. So I suppose I should change the term “strong desire” to the more accurate term “fanatical desire”. If you doubt my terminology, you have only to query Jane, my beloved wife of 46 years. I feel quite certain she’ll set your mind at ease.
I’m sure this is merely a self-serving exercise, and I’ll admit that. I only posted this as a way to sooth my own unmanaged insecurities. But I’ve never believed that turning a blind eye to a real or imagined problem is the best way to deal with it. I’d rather face it straight on – face to face. After that, I can feel secure that I’ve done all I could do, personally.
I hope I haven’t bored you. If so, I apologize. But, at least now I can move on without my uncertainty festering into something unhealthier than an uncertain mind. And I thank you all for listening.
As always, my best to you all,
-- The Hermit in the Woods --
